Hi, it's me again.

You see me here once every few month...

This became my bestest friend I have not keep in contact for very very long. Not that I hate this friend, but the lesser I come here and rant the better?

Cause here is where I deposit my sadness, rage, anger, jealousy... all those bad things that I don't need in my life.

One day I'll have them all deleted. That one day i found true happiness.

He's perfect for part of me. That why it will hurt. We aren't meant to be together. The future is invalid. But yet I can't stop the infatuation. The closer we get, the harder it will be for us, for me.
I'm insecure. Not certain what's next, not certain what's going to happen, like a bird who's free to roam yet there's a thin thread holding it back. This thread might break anytime.
Anytime....

ok time to give myself cry...